Summer Summer Time

Change has been constant since my last post.  My emotions are all over the place.  I feel like there is no end in sight.  So many highs and lows.  I wish I was a  happier person.  I wish that things could be easier.  I feel like my life hasn't started yet.  I'm waiting for my kick off , and I think I know what it is but I don't see it happening anytime soon.  I always get like this around my birthday, and thats in a month.   I feel like since I'm getting older that things should be moving forward.  and I HATE absolutely HATE that my happiness and my feelings of self worth depend on this one thing.. I won't get into details of it here.  Not the time or place.  

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